Dear Judy

Sadie Kate has spent the week composing a Christmas letter to you, and it leaves nothing for me to tell. Oh, we’ve had a wonderful time! Besides all the presents and games and fancy things to eat, we have had hayrides and skating parties and candy pulls. I don’t know whether these pampered little orphans will ever settle down again into normal children.

Many thanks for my six gifts. I like them all, particularly the picture of Judy, junior; the tooth adds a pleasant touch to her smile.

You’ll be glad to hear that I’ve placed out Hattie Heaphy in a minister’s family, and a dear family they are. They never blinked an eyelash when I told them about the communion cup. They’ve given her to themselves for a Christmas present, and she went off so happily, clinging to her new father’s hand!

I won’t write more now, because fifty children are writing thank-you letters, and poor Aunt Judy will be buried beneath her mail when this week’s steamer gets in.

My love to the Pendletons.

S. McB.

P.S. Singapore sends his love to Togo, and is sorry he bit him on the ear.

John Grier Home,

December 30.

O DEAR, Gordon, I have been reading the most upsetting book!

I tried to talk some French the other day, and not making out very well, decided that I had better take my French in hand if I didn’t want to lose it entirely. That Scotch doctor of ours has mercifully abandoned my scientific education, so I have a little time at my own disposal. By some unlucky chance I began with “Numa Roumestan,” by Daudet. It is a terribly disturbing book for a girl to read who is engaged to a politician. Read it, Gordon dear, and assiduously train your character away from Numa’s. It’s the story of a politician who is disquietingly fascinating (like you). Who is adored by all who know him (like you). Who has a most persuasive way of talking and makes wonderful speeches (again like you). He is worshiped by everybody, and they all say to his wife, “What a happy life you must lead, knowing so intimately that wonderful man!”

But he wasn’t very wonderful when he came home to her—only when he had an audience and applause. He would drink with every casual acquaintance, and be gay and bubbling and expansive; and then return morose and sullen and down. “Joie de rue, douleur de maison,” is the burden of the book.

I read it till twelve last night, and honestly I didn’t sleep for being scared. I know you’ll be angry, but really and truly, Gordon dear, there’s just a touch too much truth in it for my entire amusement. I didn’t mean ever to refer again to that unhappy matter of August 20,—we talked it all out at the time,—but you know perfectly that you need a bit of watching. And I don’t like the idea. I want to have a feeling of absolute confidence and stability about the man I marry. I never could live in a state of anxious waiting for him to come home.

Read “Numa” for yourself, and you’ll see the woman’s point of view. I’m not patient or meek or long-suffering in any way, and I’m a little afraid of what I’m capable of doing if I have the provocation. My heart has to be in a thing in order to make it work, and, oh, I do so want our marriage to work!

Please forgive me for writing all this. I don’t mean that I really think you’ll be a “joy of the street, and sorrow of the home.” It’s just that I didn’t sleep last night, and I feel sort of hollow behind the eyes.

May the year that’s coming bring good counsel and happiness and tranquillity to both of us!

As ever,

S.

January 1.